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Loves. Laoma.Panyin Retardgirl#1.VengYi Retardgirl#2.YingTing Retardgirl#3.Michelle ToiletBowl.DengYin. Cousin.GarYim Adna Yanni &myself;ancestorCAS. Bimbotic Diamonds<3 D-lock;ZhengYang I-lock;Jonathan A-key;Peishi M-key;ME! O-key;siewlin N-key;Veron D-key;Charlene SSAQT,swimmers, Jerome kor Mathew ShuaiGe Weipei Jialong Wilson Simon -although we have gone separate ways, i'll never forget all of you.
Friday, October 30, 2009 yayy. wr final. we finally wrote this word,name our doc FINAL. im really super touched by my grp mates who stayed up till 5am this morn,to do up my wr. im touched. really. absolutely. certainly. hehe. and its down yipppeeeeeeee. im so gna treat my pw grp mates lk heaven. cos they're so freakg nice. they asked me to rest for the night,cos i had choir rehearsal,and did it all th way till th sun was about to rise. i owe them too much! hmms,tag replies:
tired out. if anyone didn realise,i havent been blogging since ages ago. missed blogging alrd. i even neglected my precious private blog. grr. im busy (bet noone believes) but ive got choir,swimming,pw. that's alot for that puny brain of mine. being run down by pple from syc was alr bad enough, the fact that i have to force myself to sing with them and get stressed out is worse. i really dont like the fact that they keep complaining about rvcs standard. we make mistakes but they do too. yet,why are we the bane for every mistakes that turn out on stage? why are we the ones blamed for gng sharp,when i heard it was YOU GUYS who went freakg sharp? im not pushing our mistakes to you guys,but sometimes,you shld stop pushing ur mistakes to us. we are small. but our number is not a good reason for you guys to criticise and push evth to us or worse still LOOK DOWN on us. we are small. but with dignity. respect us for us to respect you.
choir/Him. Saturday, October 17, 2009 had choir rehearsal w/ SYC today. thou it was only a twohour prac,i learnt so much from there. phew,ms tham didn take me out of th choir ((((((((((((: hehe i had a sweet dream last night. 'll be blogging at my private blog about it,my besties can view it yayy (: 因为太想念，所以爱得更深刻。 也发现，爱其实不只是外表而已。 PW (((((((((((: Thursday, October 15, 2009 tired out from PW. yet im feeling satisfied and happy cos at least my teammates recognised my hard work (: love them so much!(: pw got so fun cos of them, ohya,and today,wuyi touched me again (: love her! <3 sad. yet gna smile. Wednesday, October 14, 2009 actually,and honestly,i was really unhappy today. i dno why. ive tried so hard to mix with th pple in my class. its not lk i wanted to isolate myself. today,when i tried to join in their conversation. they just totally dao-ed me. and said this:今天天气真好啊。 it totally hurt me. I ALMOST BROKE DOWN. yupps. but i was so glad,i kept on remembering what fengye told me yest night. to SMILE,no matter wht happens. i was so unhappy. and i knew running/sprinting gna be th best way to relieve all th stress and unhappiness within me. so i sprinted. i ran like mad. i ran till i had stomache, headache. i just wanted to forget all th unhappiness bottled up in me for th past few days. love/friendship/studies/family. yeahs,it did help greatly. I DIDN DROP A SINGLE TEAR. i guess ive become much braver than before. or maybe i have gotten used to th life of a loner. BUT IM SO GLAD CHOY SIEWLIN AND YAPPEISHI ACTUALLY ACCOMPANIED ME DURING LUNCH,AND DURING MY SADDEST PERIOD OF MY LIFE. in fact,i love that super tight hug with yap! (: its th tightest hug i ever had. hehe. maybe when th whole world (i.e. my class and th rest of th schl) turns their backs on me, choir peeps wld be alwys there for me. and i mean lk, really alwys. rvcs,i love u guys. nearly as much as XXX, XOXOXO. 我一定会熬过明年的。命运让我呆在这班，所以我一定要熬过去（： being happy. Tuesday, October 13, 2009 i really wanna make efforts to make myself happy. sometimes,friends are also gettg upset cos of my unhappiness. alwys look on th bright side of life. yeahs,i must be happy for th thngs i alrd have. happy tht i have those who love me arnd me. happy tht th earth is still rotating as time ticks. happy cos thr are really thngs worth being happy for. im not gna be upset cos of her / him alrd. sometimes,forgetting the past, is a way to move on to the future. im bravely embracing my future, will you be there waiting for me? chloe,i love you too! (as a friend duh LOL) Monday, October 12, 2009 Beautiful Highlights of the day: chloe's beautiful card totally sparked up my day! :D its like i was so down for i dno wht reason for th whole day,until she poped a card into my face hehe. super touched. im so glad we're finally tgt in a same class,esp since we're not in the same clique in 2i. and esp when we're so fated to be in the same pw group,tgt with jiayi,simon,shiyuan hehe. love you guys. pw got so fun cos of you and you and you and you (: yippeee. thanks chloe! <3 made a private blog,so maybe neglecting this blog partially. hmms,if you guys want th url,i may consider giving it to you (most prolly if u guys are freakg close to me/i can share my secrets to!) coh.bs.com (get th full url from me hehe) th rumours made my inconvenience. overall,schl was fun,yet normal today. happy bday. Friday, October 9, 2009 happy birthday to gf. its her bday tdy,yet i cried. i tried not to. but yupps my heart ached so much tt tears just flowed down with th pain. glad tht this pain gna be over soon. smile,cos thr'll be something to smile for. smile,cos yknow he'll be looking at a distant. :D yeah,smile lk this. my love. from afar. Thursday, October 8, 2009 ive decided. maybe its time i gave up th love. i rly dont wanna stress him anymore. "BENEDICTION IS ALSO A FORM OF LOVE." you dont need love to be reciprocated to love a person. as long as he's happy, evth else does not matter. (my last post about him,cos i heard he's being affected by all th rumours and all) i knw as long as i persevere,as long as i dont waiver,he may one day be touched by my love. i was worried sick for him tdys. ran as fast as i cld during pe,so i wont be stressed. glad it did help. *dont worry,from now,i'll just look from a distance. i will care for you behind you,and you wont know. you wont be stressed kays?* hope tmr's gna be a better day. laughs at myself for running out of schl,to see if he's at th bus stop LOL. 3b07/4b08 Wednesday, October 7, 2009 ohya. tdy,junwen asked me about 4b class chalet. althou i admit tht i alwys have th urge to forget this class and all. but i know i cant. cos this class is really so awesome. th perps are cool&nice,so nice you cant find them anywhere. cos i knw evtime im down and out. this is th class tht's there for me. just tt yknow,mmrs will one day be erased. it's when tht matters. but3b07/4b08,yknow i love you guys rights? (: tennis/studies/life grr. was supposed to start trg tennis tdy,but cos i injured my shoulder last sat,i gta refrain from tennis D: sighs. when will i ever master this? gods. what a failure. hurhur. our class tee gna be up soon (: im so glad thngs are improvg now. thou im still a loner in class,ive got to accept th fact and carry on with life. nvrthless,ur class will alwys be thr beside you rights? treasure th ppl near you,cos they may disappear anytime. ive learnt so much this year. th year's cmg to an end,results are out. th fate of 2009 is decided. &now all i have to do,is take a step forward & move on bravely. I LOVE WUYI <3 Tuesday, October 6, 2009 on a brighter note,went out with WUYI <3 today. im so grateful tht she actually forgoed 5K outing to pei wo (: cos needed to buy mum's bday pressie &the only place to get it was at vivo. thanks wuyi,once again!(: P.S. OUR BUS ARRIVED AT THE SAME TIME. TELEPATHY ((((((((((((((((((((((((: IM A LETDOWN. aftr so MANY days of happiness,im now down with the sorrow flu. aftr so MANY days of smiling,ive finally lost control of the happy bug within me and broke down in tears. it was aftr so much disillusion did i finally realised how much my results sucked. how much i have let my parents down. my parents scringed and saved,just so that i could go for tuition classes. yet,i failed all their hopes on me. i cant even get th yearly edusave bursary i alwys got. some people may think i expect too much from myself,that other people are struggling to promote,yet im frowning about not getting into the top50% of the school. but it's th achievements i hope to get to make my parents proud. sth that others wont understand. my timings for swimming have deproved. and my parents have lost hope in my singing,knwing that i'll nvr make it into auditions (tht gna come real soon). & i have nthg to show to them,except sucky results/timings/CCA records/NO leadership. but my sis has evth (besides singing). sometimes i realised such a letdown am i. this world seems too squeezed for me to be in. i wanna get out,i dont wanna try to squeeze in anymore. P.S. shld i quit studying &go out to work? a happy day Monday, October 5, 2009 althou tdy's a boring day, but i love mondays th most! its simply cos its th day with th most smiley faces on my timetable ((: monday blues dont count for me(: hate fridays,cos i dno why i alwys dont see him. grr. sometimes love's just so simple. once you get to see th person you love,your day will instantly be awesome. it happened for me, i was so lethargic,till i met him. (: anyws had heron meeting aftr long and dragging pw lesson. hahh. i alwys talk my heart out whn im with garyim. like just go on and on, and ranting on and on about Him Him and Him. hahh. &she dont seem to mind. &perhaps cos i wldnt mind her hearing about it. smehow,i can trust her to keep my secrets. but... secrets? are they meant to be kept? or they meant for pple to be exploited for their own benefits. smetimes,it's cos i trust pple too much that they turn their backs on me and stab me right thru th heart. she made me give up on th true meaning of friendship. so much so,i nearly lost th trust i had for all th friends arnd me. grr. friendship. isnt it as complicated as love? OHYA. &my whole class promoted (: just tt i hope ziwei gna still be in our class,cos he's dropping to h1 cse. &prays that th whole level gna promote tgt! xD a happy love Sunday, October 4, 2009 要我怎么放弃你呢？ althou i know sooner or later i will have to forget all about you,and forget all th love i have for you. but i rly want tt happy and fortunate feeling to stay within me. at least for now,i rly dont wna forgo tht love for anythng else. im rly very happy loving you,and i dn want tt feeling to stop. cos i knw even if we cant get tgt next time,you'll still be th type of guy i gna love. P.S. yayy,next year can take same bus w him :DDDDDDDDDDD Thursday, October 1, 2009 im really happy today. 今天看到他望着我看，我就无比的开心。 虽然可能是错觉，幻想。 可是，那感觉却非常非常甜蜜。 明知道自己很丑，明知道他是不可能喜欢上我， 但是我却爱的很快乐。 也觉得，能爱他，已经是很幸福，很幸福的事。 我好爱你。 played tennis during pe,while my whole class played bball. cos im afraid of orange balls (ever since dno when),ive vowed not to touch a orange ball,unless necessary. so yayy. i get to train tennis. thou my wrist hurt lk mad,i pushed myself to train. grr. tennis aint easy at all. tennis stuffs ive learnt from ngwk,and am very grateful to Him:
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