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Loves. Laoma.Panyin Retardgirl#1.VengYi Retardgirl#2.YingTing Retardgirl#3.Michelle ToiletBowl.DengYin. Cousin.GarYim Adna Yanni &myself;ancestorCAS. Bimbotic Diamonds<3 D-lock;ZhengYang I-lock;Jonathan A-key;Peishi M-key;ME! O-key;siewlin N-key;Veron D-key;Charlene SSAQT,swimmers, Jerome kor Mathew ShuaiGe Weipei Jialong Wilson Simon -although we have gone separate ways, i'll never forget all of you.
Saturday, December 27, 2008 sorry guys,i have made up my mind. HE will be the last guy i love. so,all those fishes in th sea,i wont give a damn. (my eyes only have tt fishy pineapple :P) im putting up a strong front now. cried lots. went to th gym today,cos zoey said exercising can help you forget your sorrows. well,it dint quite. cos i was running and huffing and crying and sobbing,all at t same time. so,i gave up,and went out. th point is,TEESHIRT was played on t radio in t gym. and all th mmrs are poured into my mind again.. &oops,my neighbour spotted me crying outside t gym,and i was lk.. -.- (they thot my sister bullied me,xD) then went for training in th night, i freaking dono why i cried infront of my coach D: he was lk,why you cry! and i totally dint know what to say. and i cant believe i said: oh,uh,family stuff. (cos,i treated him as part of my family already) ahh,you,my laogong,now and forever. i will hold on to you tightly. call me despo,or a bitch,or stupid sticky worm. but just three words,plus a forever. I Love You Forever. Friday, December 26, 2008 wanna say a big thank you,for my family for being there for me,during this period of time. my mum,although she looks happy,or rather she said she was happy for me,im glad she understand how unhappy i was. and dint reprimand me when i was breaking down infront of her. my sister. she's t best. making me a handmade big and yellow smiley face,with t words 'cheer up' on it. thanks! and i was super super shocked that you actually cried with me. instead of you cheering me up,i told you not t cry! but,wanna say,you've been a good sister. although we had quarrels bit and there,you were t one who was always there for me. thanks! i should have heeded your advice,and not trust guys! afterall,i realised it was my family and friends who was t one who were always there for me. love,does nothing but hurt. love wont last,but friendships'll last. (that's my presumption) SIGH. my eyes are dried from tears. my heart are dying from t terrible ache. who ever knows me,will know how much i love him. i really cant live without him,it's stupid right? :{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ wanna say thanks t garyim(who talked to me on t phone for 1 hour and 5 mins!),yting(who consoled me,and tried t help me contact him),siewlin(who wanted t meet up with me t find out what's wrong,and t talk t me) and weikai(who gave me suggestions and all) and so much of our memories is flooding my mind,and giving me a heartache again. and,no,i wont let go of you,i will still hold onto you tightly. i wont accept it. and things'll remain as it is. tell me you're lying. tell me you still love me. fuck,im decieving myself yet again. can i hold your hands till th end of time? *slaps my own face* *wipe my own tears* cos i'll have t do evth myself from now on. i have to blog about this,cos it's pushing my heart down to th bottom,that i can no longer take it anymore. i tried to divert my attention to other stuff,but failed to stop those tears from falling again. i mopped th floor,only to find myself mopping those salty tears. i hate myself,for trusting in guys yet and again. and yes,i placed all my love on him. i thought he would be t last guy who would bring me happiness. i thought he would be t guy i would live with forever. maybe i was too naive. i thought he was t only guy who was different from t rest. yet,he was t one who broke my heart t most. i tried to hate him,only finding myself falling deeply in love with him again. am i doing t right thing? is love wrong? why must you give me all those promises,yet breaking all of them one by one? i shall tell t whole entire world what promises you had made to me,to decieve me into beliveing you. "i promise to hold on to you" "i promise i will give you time to trust me,till then,i will wait." "i promise i will only have one girl in my life,and that's you" "i promise that staying by my side thru thick and thin,i am happy le" "i wont let go of you no matter what" "i promise i wont be affected by anyone,our love wont be affected." "i promise i will wait for you to love me" "i promise i will always be yours" "i promise to be loyal to you,even after you COME BACK FROM HK" "i promise to be your laogong,even when you are back" "i promise that you are everything to me" "i promise to stay with you together,till the end of time" "今天看到你哭，让老公下定决心要永远在你身边照顾你。" "i will be your husband forever." "i cant live without you" "i will always be there for you even when no one care about you" "i promise i will love you forever,and no other girl will replace you" they were all lies,lies that have shattered my heart into pieces. why did i stupidly choose to trust all of them? ] i am deeply hurt. ask me to forget him,i will say i cannot. ask me to love him,and i say i will forever. ask me to make him love me back,things are gone forever. he has clearly said: "i dont love you!" D: pineapple,thanks f breaking my heart. Thursday, December 25, 2008 Evth's over. The end. (a merry xmas t myself,cos im celebrating it alone.),goodbye, my love. Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Day Eight I have lost ALL confidence in love. so,lk what the hell is l-o-v-e? it's killing my brain neurones,spinal nerves,arteries,veins,and capillaries. I no longer trust guys,and all because of what you and you did,i hate all guys. all those baddies,i hate all of you,for causing so much hurt to me. BADDIE,BAD,BAD! im coming back tmr,i dont want,cos i dont wanna see that baddie bad bad pineapple anymore. true love,is when you like a person,not because of looks. i am ugly,but so what? must you throw me so much love,yet snatch it back away,jerk? Tuesday, December 23, 2008 i wanna tk weikai,mingjie,siewlin,fenghan for helping me tide over this heart and mind crisis. tks f being there for me,guys! Veron sent me the diamond pics! BEAUTIFUL!      Day Seven I Hate That Dumbass Pineapple. oh,today was quite fun. i went to the avenue of stars at tsim tsha tsui to take the ferry to wanchai area,where we would then take th tram(:  we walked past some china-hk statues,that was left there (near the ferry terminal) for some remembrance of the union of ch and hk. then,th tram ride was real long,and cool. and went to the market at the end terminal of th tram ride,and then later went shopping at the sham sui po. Labels: i hate sucky pineapples. :X Monday, December 22, 2008  Siewlin,you'll love this:D Day Six i realised tomorrow 4byzantine will be going to mrliu's house. and i am so freaking sad i cant be there to go. freak. oh.and my sis fell ill today. so not much stuff happened. well,we climbed many and many of steps up to the temple. th temple is called ten thousand buddha monastery. well,as the name suggests,10000 means 10000 buddhas. it's real nice. and th temple is real holy. and th scenery is just as nice. at least,from there,i could forget all my worries and unhappiness. then after that,we went to snoopy's world. i gonna send my pics to choysiewlin! i so miss her, and yeah,later my sis and dad went back to the hotel(cos she was ill),and my mum and i went to the wholesale market. bought quite a few new year clothings there. then we went to temple street to have claypot rice,and dessert(this sounds familar right?) &back to hotel,and back to think of that person again... Sunday, December 21, 2008
Day Five 你已经忘了我。 因为我太丑，所以你选择了别的女孩。 我改则麽办呢？ oohs. just some shopping. nthng much. Zz. i feel crap. as in real crap. th fact tt im th ugliest woman,is making me feel lk shit. i wann a makeover :{ my life sucks,cos im abandoned by everyone D: (guys,why are all of you lk tt? D:) Saturday, December 20, 2008 Day Four IM IN HK NOW (: hmms,then bought some other stuffs for some other people. 1.jonathan ng 2.gohjingyuan 3.leehanqian :) see ya guys back at singapore :D Friday, December 19, 2008 oh yeah,and i bought stuffs for th following people already :D 1.auvengyi 2.lowgaryim 3.michelle pan 4.looyingting! 5.choysiewlin 6.zoeyang and many others.. hahhs,hope you like it (: Day Three SCAM! i felt so. .yeah,scammed. peeling of nails,and applying of some random cream,and its lk 30 RMB which is s$6 :[ okay,forget it. hmms,and then i started t get kinda wary of t things there. lk,ahhhs. D: Thursday, December 18, 2008
&i shall move on t DAY TWWWWWWOh2. oh,we shopped at dongmen,then luowu. okay,i so dont lk shopping there. spits of saliva and phlegm,thick smokes of cigarette tar,shopkeepers' black face,litter and rubbish. &i dont lk th environment,i cant wait t go t HK. D: i caught a flu, [sneezessssssssss] are you guys thinking too much about me? :D lol! Hey Guys. Im in Shen Zhen now. and three days later,i'll be moving on to HK. okay,'cos mine's a night flight,nthng much happened on t first day. but i'll just blog abit. [ohyeah,bosco wong is on MTV NOW.] DAY 1 all of us boarded Tiger Airways. and what is different from t normal main carrier plane,is tt you have t board t plane lk outta t airport. It's weird,but tt's how we did. &'cos we're heading f China,there were loads of mainland chinese. well,first time i encountered such stuff. and t plane ride,oh it's alright. 'cos me,my sis ,and mum were watching 'goodbye solo'(a korean drama) and we alighted,and headed t hotel. see,thr aint much t talk about. hope t see you guys back in singapore eight days later,byebye 你忘了我了吗？ Tuesday, December 16, 2008
GOODBYE GUYS. Will be away from 17 Dec to 25 Dec. If ure dying t contact me,just pop me and email,and i'll be replying. or you can look out for my blog details,'cos i'll be blogging everyday :D Sayonara,my beloveds. PS: YOU CAN STILL SEND ME YOUR XMAS PRESENTS AND CARDS! I'LL BE SO LOOKING FORWARD T IT MANS! ^^ Sunday, December 14, 2008
I wanna dedicate this post t a few people i have hurt in my lifetime. you are those who really meant alot to me. and because of my suckiness,i have caused much hurt t you guys. so,here's this post specially f you. firstly,You. i am sorry t have hurt you. sometimes,trust needs lotsa time t build up. i need that much of time *stretches out hand widely* Secondly,Low Gar Yim,im sorry i have made you cry before. you were my bestest friend,and i hope i will forever. (i still can remember vividly that scene where you broke down right in t middle of t field,im really sorry) Thirdly,Charlene!,im sorry tt time i totally ignored you,which totally upset you. im really sorry. hope you'll be able t forget t past,and we can be friends lk before. 还有，其他因为我而受伤的人，在此我想说个对不起。我其实不是故意的。希望你们能原谅我。我已经感到十分愧疚。希望我们能再次作个朋友. diamond bbq is marvellous and totally fab. to have a get together with your friends,and being able t enjoy th true meaning of friendship,tt's what i got out of yest bbq. i mean t bbq totally rocks my socks! THANKS jonneh f t free bbq. and i hope u'll lk t chocs my family and i bought f your family and you lols. oh yeah,and i hope YAPPEISHI loves my pressie just lk I love her pressie so much. hope u'll be able t tk of me,when you see t bear bear and bottle,and listen t th carolling fr t bear bear and feel t soft cuddly fur of t bear bear. [kays,this sounds totally grossed out] &THANKS charlene f t 66quizes book. I/WE so love t hear our personality being read out. you and peishi must have wasted lots of breath yea? tks loads mans! &VERON,my 逃婚妹,we shall 逃婚 together next time xP lols. which i doubt we will lol! i still owe you 9bucks. i'd better remember cos new year is lk so round t corner. &ZHENGYANG,hahhs. my best guy mate. and i mean he's lk t only guy i can flirt w :P okay,sounds wrong but its true. (since everyone tks im a flirt,so..) &&&CHOY SIEWLIN! although you werent w us yest,lk what jonneh said,we can really feel your presence yeps. i cant wait f you t be back in sgp,my dearie! DIAMOND,let's go f a twilight date. i'll be back f you ♥ Saturday, December 13, 2008
i dono whether i have made th right choice. i dono if i have really hurt you. i dono if by doing this,you'll be happy. there're lots of dks in my head now. i prolly need t take a long rest for my brain t function per norm. A hol t hk will do t trick,i guess. Friday, December 12, 2008 yippes,i love my new GF,loo ying ting :D [i dont feel so lonely now ;D] i have a new gf! Thursday, December 11, 2008 todolist, 17-19 dec. chalet, his. 23 dec. mrliu's house. 24 dec xmas eve. 25 dec xmas. yet, 17-25 dec. iamaway, ---- i'll try nt t miss y,cos it's pointless. u'll be back at sgp doing stuff i'll b unhappy about. so what's t point? i want a breakup,yet my heart says it's not ready too. well,i feel lk punching my heart and say,let me go!. Wednesday, December 10, 2008 choir camp was yest! and todayy... But as you can see,im back at home. which means i dint stay overnight. it's overall fun,but boring without t company. yeah,i've absolutely no friends in choir. and even if i had,they were overseas. okay,there was char with me. but what good did it have,when she was already surrounded by a bunch of juniors calling for her when we reached. when i entered t dawningly cold school,i felt lk i was totally ignored . i felt lonely. i felt lk t whole world has turned their backs on me. yes,i felt horribly terrible. PS:i am a loner,with no friends. t juniors in choir prolly hated me,cos in their minds,im just tt irritating and no-brains and alwys-outta-tune senior. i hate myself f being so hated. oh,we had friendship dance. As we *_* to t left, as we *_* to t right, as we *_*, as we *_*, as we *_* all night. With a heel and a toe, and a half turn around, with a heel and a toe, and a new friend found. oh,it feels weird lk holding hands with t guys in choir. i shall briefly talk about some really funnaye people,i thought they were funny. esp mingjun who lk totally grabbed girls' hands. gawds i saw pek khoon lk almost fly off t ground,when we turned. oh when it was my turn,he actually asked me!:"may i hold your hand?" OMFG. i was rly stunned f a moment. oh and t sec1s. they're cute! and shy! hahh. reminds me when i was a sec1. and my snrs snrs! they're back. and still as cheerful as ever. it seems lk dancing t whole dance again four years ago with t same senior. and zhenkai,was lk "Be careful of t fire!" "Move t th right!" yeah,imiss my snrs. [oh yeah,zhihui's hands werent as sweaty as i thought:}] :{ if only,my buddies could come back, then there was ELOPE! and all tks t th jnrs' cheeky ideas,they cut me and jonneh! gawds. i swear we ran lk countless of times,before we could get back t th circle! but it was fun! and i won nearly all t scissors paper stones! :D and cos i was impatient and a lil excited,i ran faster than usual,and pulling jonneh's hands away from mine. so he kept reminding me about it! i was lucky i dint have t do th pole dance punishment! oh and t jnrs' performance could have been better though! germ forgot t ask US t grade them! PS:buffet aint as nice. we threw away lots of food. okay,9pm the hidden floor movie. and im still freaked now. 10pm home sweet home. it's my last choir camp,if only more people were here with me. i felt so dispaired,demoralized,ostracised,left out,lonely,and Depressed. Monday, December 8, 2008 IAMTIRED. period. Tag Replies. ytingg: woots. what happened? gawds,ure alwys there t solve my probs,and im never there f you. hms,i'll add the stickiest UHU glue f you then t mend your broken heart. wells,it can never be as broken as mine yeah? i have lost. yeps in <3. no confidence,no nthng. if only i could be lk you. imissyou,dearly! charlene: whees. i miss you too! yeps,i gna mk myself present f both events,or not i'll prolly die missing you. you are loved t! garyim: D:yeah,it's messy. but it suits a messy person lk me. :[ vengyi: yayyy. i miss you loads. hope you did have fun in shanghai! and im looking forward t my souvenir! Ure loved! <3 Sunday, December 7, 2008 [Turning point of old granny storyteller's story] Girl's best friend saw Big Black Boy flirting with a beautiful babe. much more beautiful than Girl. when Girl heard about it,she cried for nights and nights. then she told herself that she would never trust guys anymore. she took a sword and swiped it right through t chest. Girl is dead. she wrote a DEATHNOTE, stating all t depressions tt she has had. she thank Big Black Boy f teaching her what l-o-v-e is. she says she never regret being with Big Black Boy cause he has allowed her t know how ugly this world is. WOW. is this l-o-v-e? is Girl foolish? maybe,she isnt. 'cause she has fallen right thru t river of love. moodcheck: im pisssszzzzzed. freaking hell. for goodness sake,im uber pissed of w xxx. xxx actually asked if t GUYS can go t mrliu's house,yet she dint even ask us. WTH. OMF. i so freaking wanna go mrliu's house. why am i deprived of this? why? it seems lk im deprived of evth in my life. maybe,im just t selfcentered. i only care f myself. but prolly,no one seems t lk me, no one seems t understand my feelings. even,you. Saturday, December 6, 2008 nth much f todayy. i gna go f swimming training soon. PS:im not afraid of backaches,when i set my heart at it,i do it my best. this eemplies t you. oh. t ending. Girl chosed t trust Big Black Boy. [hopefully that's a happy ending] Friday, December 5, 2008 [pose as a old granny storyteller] Have you heard about the big black wolf? Now,here's a story about a big black boy. This big black boy,labelled as a casanova by most people,obviously had lots of girls. But apparently,as what big black boy told old granny storyteller,he has fallen deeply for a Girl(obviously) and is truely serious about her. [at this point of time,old granny storyteller is shaking her head in disbelief] the Girl,however lk any other girls,dint trust what so ever he has to tell her. she rejects his calls. she ignores his sms. she treats him coldly. and the point is that she wanna shoo him away, but big black boy is persistent in Girl. so he keeps sending her smses and calls her 24/7. Girl does not know what to do. to believe the three words he says or believe in faith. ---. gawds. old granny storyteller stopped her story short. and ohpuhlease.i wanna know t ending luh! [stay tune t find out if it is a happy ending or a funny ending or a depressing ending,or if big black boy will end up lk t big black wolf色狼] lesson learnt:th three words is hard t say. went out w/ garyim tdy. woots,it's funzz. thou boring. well,it's fun getting some fresh air,instead of cooping at home and tkin t much about stuff and stuff. at least out there,my worries seemingly flown off from my over-stressed head. but westmall is oh-so-small. there is lk nthg t do. arcade and movies are trying t dig a hole in my pocket,but my long fingers managed t mend it up. okay crap,im just uber broke now hehs. okay,and me and gy talked lots. yeah,and thru her i've known so much about red,yellow and purple wings. and yeps,all t random names and jiakang lookalike. rumble tumble. and 'cos after walking up down left right of westmall, you'll know walking aint gna get you anywhere. and so,final destination,the bus interchange. i freaking dont lk BB bus interchange. and i shant disclose why i dont lk it. neither do i lk t arcade there. and t theatre there. and t coffee bean there. and t kopitiam there. i dont lk,means i dont lk. aint anth more t it. for goodness sake, love aint getting you anywhere,dumbass. *points t myself* *shakes head infront of Thursday, December 4, 2008 wow.this is crazy. the B-itchie has privatized her blog,mans. http://protected-danger.blogspot.com/ whoever gets in,help me run a check. tks, i wanna know how she's getting on w/o him. LAST SUNDAY,MY LAST COMPETITION. woootssssszxzxsxxzx. one gold,one silver. what im proud of,is not t medal, but t fact tt i can finally swim w my beloveds,and win a gold medal tgt, it's t unity of US,tt i have so wished f in my life. but since our club has been disbanded,i no longer feel tt kinda bondedness, i miss ssaQT hell-loads, i miss t times we had. where we would talk at t edge of t pool after training, where we would talk talk and talk during training only t get scolded by our coach. where we would all have a SSAQT outing t th movies or t th arcade. all th mmrs,i wont forget. all you beaus,i wont ever forget. even if it's t end of my swimming career, it wont be t end of our everlasting friendship. PS:imissmykorandshuaige TWO TO THE POWER OF THREE EQUALS EIGHT. |
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